my boy. at 4.

may 8, 2013
    Hi my ry ry.
(if your a stink your going to notice that this is a day late, but let me tell you yesterday was worth the fact that I didn't do this till today. we were at the zoo for 6 hours with our friends and let me tell you kid, you had a blast)

Your four now dude. weird. like freking your mom out weird. you are such a  big boy now and momma misses her baby. you are amazing ry. you are smart, funny and have a smile that could charm anyone. your face just lights up and a giggle can come from your toes that cause the world to stop and listen. four years ago you changed your mommas heart when you were born, I just wasn't sure that I could love another baby as much as I loved your sister, but my heart stretched and grew in ways that I never thought possible. I love that your sweet, you always want other people to be happy. you are funny, always saying isn't that funny mom? like you really want us to get it. you have bonded with your daddy, he's loving this big boy stuff...t ball, hip hop dancing, starting to read.... how could a daddy not love? you don't really have a favorite toy, although guns, and iron man are the best currently.... you just play... with whatever. you love to swing, jump on the trampoline and swim.... you love music, I think its because your in the car so much with me these days but you can sing the heck out of pretty much any song on the radio. dance has brought you into this confident goofy entertainer and I love love love watching it. you have blossomed so much since the days of shy clinging to momma. you wake up early, like you just cant wait to start something new. you and mk have this bond, like besties, some times I even felt left out of your little world, when you play mole hole in my closet or pirate ship in my tub I think gosh how lucky the two of you are to have one another cuz I kinda don't get the games most of the time. you love your friends, and playing with them is when you are super happy. in school your bored a lot, not a big sit down and do kinda kid but ryan your so smart. Its amazing when you learn something how proud you are, and how much you have already learned has gotten me excited for whats to come. I still think you are the worlds best hugger. hands down when you go to squeeze someone or snuggle up into my lap I swear to you I melt into a puddle. im way okay if you stop growing up now my boy. your amazing right now. amazing. except the few tantrums you have had that way stink... your a sweet little man and I don't want that to ever change. you are handsome. so handsome. and perfect. ryan, I wish for you..... candy, chips, root beer, big slide, swimming pools, music, big nosey guns, boats and fast cars, I wish for you twinkle twinkle little stars and socks that slide when you run. I wish for you hugs and snuggles and lizards and trampolines as big as the sky. happy birthday my ryan. xo momma.

time to say....

Goodbye, to our blog. At least this blog. After almost a year of not posting it just feels like a good time to close this out. My babies are both in school, so busy with life and now Momma just wants to sit back and watch as you two grow up, explore and learn about everything new in our lives. This blog seriously is an awesome journey we went through, it started as mikayla was so little, welcomed Ryan into this world and all the fun in between. I will probably start a fresh blog this new year, at least that's my goal to have a journal of our lives and it seems like a good time for a fresh chapter to begin. It has been an incredible journey.... and i can not wait to see whats next. Xo kiddos!

a day....

While we were up in Pinetop to visit grandma and grandpa we decided to head out in the fall weather and get some pumpkins, so we looked in the local newspaper and found a pumpkin patch about 45 min away and decided to head out. We planned our day around naps in the car, lunch, and getting home in time for dinner and it was all going according to plan until.... we get there and instead of the hours in the paper 10- 3, its 3- 10, ummmm ooops! So i drive around pretty bummed, crying kids, start speeding down the road back home and out my window i see just a beautiful place. We spun around and parked and decided to take a little hike around this awesome river bed/creek place and see what we could find. We ended up spending an hour checking out the trees, running in the grass, playing with sticks and just being. It actually saved our day.... we ended up wasting enough time to get to the pumpkin patch right when they opened and having a blast. a great lesson on going with the flow... enjoying what you have and being in the moment,. a beautiful day with my family.

where is your happy place?

this, is mine. white river on the white moutians, up north just 3 hours from home. This is where i camped, sometime 2 weeks at a time growing up, where my mom and dad got married, and now where i can bring my munchikes. We spent the day playing in the freeezing water, picking flowers, seeing butterflies, and checking out all the cool critters that live around there. Ryan somehow got the idea that he loved to fish, we wernt sure but he was so right! he fished like a champ with his daddy and couldnt get enough. no fish, but lots of smiles. this is a place i will come every july with my family, smell the wet dirt, feel the mud between my toes, dare everyone to get as far in as possible, and hopefully ( when my kids wont jump in alone) camp for as long as we can handle. i love that when im haveing a hot summer day i can close my eyes and feel this place.

have i told you latley

Crazy girl, don’t you know that I love you?

And I wouldn’t dream of goin’ nowhere

Silly woman, come here, let me hold you

Have I told you lately?I love you like crazy, girl

Wouldn’t miss a single day, I’d probably just fade away
Without you, I’d lose my mind

Before you ever came along, I was livin’ life all wrong

Smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine.

Crazy girl, don’t you know that I love you?

And I wouldn’t dream of goin’ nowhere

Silly woman, come here, let me hold you

Have I told you lately?

I Love you like crazy, girl

If you have spent any amount of time with MK lately, you know shes..... well, kinda crazy. Shes emotional, spastic, sweet, salty, all kinds of everything. She is a 0 to 60 kinda girl ( not that most 3year old girls are not.... ) and she is a LOT of work for her momma. Some days, she takes more work then others ( again, just like most kiddos ) and this song always makes me and her smile when we sing to each other. She is my crazy girl.... and i wouldn't dream of goin nowhere with out here. She is her mothers daughter... crazy and all.

Take 2.

Buggie, Your second graduation of preschool was adorable... and even made me cry a little.... who is this beautiful big smart and sassy girl walking with her friends to show off all shes learned off on her own in school. You have been talking about the solar system, weather cycle, counting, spelling, the continents, and all kind of big girl things. More importantly you have learned to be independent, be a better friend, be kind and caring, and have a life that is yours.... you are so awesome. Now we get summer, to swim and play and be just us... until next year.... one more year of preschool and then time must stop.... you are just to big.

two two....

YOU ARE TWO!! Whoo!!! baby boy, the time has gone so fast. When i first met you ryan, my heart melted... and you still have that effect on me today. You are a snuggle bunny. So so awesome at giving lots of love, hugs and kisses and are in general a sweet kid. You like to keep the peace and share, laugh constatnly and have the best tickle giggle i have EVER heard. You are looking for boys these days, You are surrounded by cute girls... i think it will help your game as you grow up.... but.... dad is worried you like it to much so we have sought out some awesome buff little dudes to be men with. You like swords, guns, dogs, food, sweets, lolly pops, swimming, tv, being loud, playing ball, swinging, dancing, BUZZ! really ry, theres nothing you dont like, you love brushing teeth, are a great sleeper... oh veggies, ya that not so much. you are so friendly, funny and cute i have such high hopes for the man you will become. i love getting to know you everyday, and i know when you are a man, you will still be mommas boy. xoxo beefy.