Seriously?!

My BABY is THIS BIG? What the heck.

Can you believe hes almost two? i get that question alot... and looking at this picture... umm ya, look at him hes like a full grown little toddler dude. it feels like five minutes ago we had people comming over to snuggle our newest ferris... oohing and ahhing how tiney and sweet he is and now look at him... holding a sweet new little girlie and talking about her toes and nose and kissing her... umm AWWW!! Little Dude, you are just so stinkin BIG. and guess what, i kinda love it!! i love that we have babies to go snuggle.... and then i get to take my awesome two big kids home!

and you my M, what a sweet big sister you have always been! you love love babies... and no. no more in mommies belly =).

They will be gone...

She spins and she sways

To whatever song plays

Without a care in the world

And I'm sitting here wearing

The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day

And there's still work to do

She's pulling at me

Saying "Dad, I need you"

There's a ball at the castle

And I've been invited

And I need to practice my dancing

Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella

While she is here in my arms

'Cause I know something the prince never knew

Oh, I will dance with Cinderella

I don't want to miss even one song

'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight

And she'll be gone...

Puppy Love

So... we have been talking puppy around here for a good six months, and although i was super okay with the whole doggie thing.. the puppy vibes kinda scared me... i already have two little ones another one .... really? So, when a friend of mine posted on facebook that her 5year old boxer needed a home with a little more time to dedicate to him... we jumped. Mike has always been a Boxer fanatic... super super awesome except... if you dont train them, really really train them... they will officially take over your life... so, this one... PERFECT! he couldn't have been better trained, loved and adapted to family life and has fit into our family so easily. He a big fan of being wit the kids... okay with all the Love they can give, has made mike work out more than he has in months and is going to be my new running buddy. Hes a sweetie and we cant wait to enjoy him for a long long time to come! Welcome home Tyson!

Muah.

I have been falling in love. All over again, with my kiddos. Its my new goal... you know those butterflies you get when you start a new relationship? well... ya, that's not happening anymore =), and that's a good thing, and so I'm finding it in the everyday.....

curious, adventurous, silly...
loving, sensitive, beefy.

3 musketeers.

these two are slowly falling in love... ah. sweet.

Goodnight

Good night house, Thank you for a beautiful day. Thank you for not minding i didn't sweep your floors and clean your walls. Thank you for keeping all our toys right in the same spot so we can start fresh again in the morning. Thank you for bouncing the giggles off the walls and sending the laughter out your windows for the world to hear. Thank you for letting us feel safe and comfortable enough to be who we want to be. Thank you for the doors to shut quiet babies behind so mom and dad can talk and laugh into the night. Our home is ours, and although it may not be fancy, or always perfect clean, it holds millions of memories inside its walls.

Just Being

this is mks world, lots of love with all these kiddos. and my support team, it takes a villiage.

this picture melts my heart, look at the people who love us enough to be there to celebrate rys one! hes a lucky dude.m and Em, aww back in the day

m and em, have been bff since they were 3 months old or so, and know, a whole sibling for both later, we love being with them as much now as then.

even mommys made some aswesome friends!

Jackson, ahh... we just cant get enough j man, these guys have been buds forever to, and ry loves to be with an older man and is learning lots from this guy. we could adopt him and he would fit. right. in.

Brinley and her fmaily have become our other half out here in the boonies. we can spend everyday together and never get sick of it. these girls love.love. to be girly together, and baby ky and ryan have.. well kinda been flirting. =)

Karter and Ryan were chubby little fat babies together, its so nice having a little man, ryans size to be with, they recognize eachother and are trouble all day long!

As a lot of you know we have been in the in between for a few weeks here, and ug, let me tell you that is not a place i like to be. i like to know when i wake up and go to bed every night whats next and not knowing sorta drove me, to drink~ oops... i mean, crazy.i just couldn't stop thinking about everyone we love, and all the time and love that has gone into these friendships we have. some of them are new and fun, and day to day people are the ones who get us through the days... and i know i know, wherever we go, these people will be... people to go have lunch with, or meet at the park, but its the people that i can go over to their houses with dirty kids, and no shoes on ( wow we sound homeless ) and just sit around, eat chocolate and let the kiddos duke it out.. or play, or whatever they do at this age. We love eachothers kids enough to know that every second of thier lives is important and we are lucky enough to share it with. People i would not want to have to explain to mikayla they wont be there today. people that i can have any conversation with in the world, and who get it. when we moved up here these people were only people on the phone for me, the Tucson chicks who I've known my whole life and i thought, this can never happen again, it will take a life time to find these people, and weirdly enough... in three years of being here, some in a matter of a year i find my self closer to these people i could have ever imagined. some of these peoples kids are like my kids at this point, we can do sleepovers, long play dates, and they feel like an extension of my kids...and even better, my kids have these people in their lives for them. people who treat my kids like family. awesome. i would have gone crazy with out you guys. all of you. and i know moving, if not us, but other people is inevitable. but i hope through the powers of something bigger they will all always be a part of us. its easy to forget how much you love someone. so i know I've missed a million posts about Christmas and Ryan being however months but here are just some pictures of us, just being with who we love, and where we love.

Now, This is Love.

a year and a half Ryan, really!? I honest to goodness, still remember you floating around in my belly, waiting for you to come and meet us. I remember being so scared of having you, a boy.. what would i do with a boy?! son, you are a dream come true. one i didn't even know i had. You are a smile on my face, a laugh out loud, a hug a slobbery wet kiss, a growl a big rough and tumble little man. Ryan I hope you are as great of a man as you are a little boy. If that happens the world is going to be so blessed by all the wonderful things you will do. You are a mommas boy through and through. You and me baby are...stuck like glue. (who oh whoa... yes mikayla will sing it to you just ask! )

Some of your big deals in life this far are:

a big boy bed! this has been way to easy... i feel like it will get harder?!

no bottle, ever! yea for both of us!

still a paci boy. an addict. I'm not strong enough to take it yet... shhh

love to play guns/swords, don't ask me how you learned all this, its just something you started one day and i think its to funny to make you play nice games instead.

cling to momma, but will attack Dada as soon as he gets home for man time

love your sister, follow her,take her things,jump on her bed, hug her, kiss her, beat her up..the normal

are an espresso addict. no i had nothing to do with this. i NEVER had it prego, or while nursing! =)

love your grandma, shawnie and grandpa. talk to them in pictures and get so excited to see them in person!

talk to every dog you see, and Martha is your favorite!

love.love. airplanes and stop to point and watch them, cry when they leave. sorry kid, no airplanes for Christmas this year.

enjoy tv, for a minute.

can run, jump, swing, teeter,climb,slide and tumble like a monkey

talk, some. kinda quiet, but mk makes up for it in our lives so we don't mind!

have a beautiful smile, chunky legs and big fat feet and toes.

Ryan, we love you, all of us. Yo make everyone happy. you are a joy of joys my son. i love watching you become this little boy, you are so big on my lap to snuggle to sleep but my boy we will do it until the day your feet touch the ground and longer still.

xoxo