Table For Four

Friday, April 25, 2014

Challenge

When I read about this the other day, I felt inspired... here's the whole idea...

"The other day I was having one of those self-pitying IS THIS ALL THERE IS sort of days -- you know, when you feel caught in a bleak Sisyphean loop of wiping up crumbs and making meals, which create more crumbs then wiping up those crumbs? -- and the next morning I randomly took a photo of my 6-year-old when he was still in bed and I thought, Actually, this is EVERYTHING. The messes, the cyclical tasks, the grind and the glory. For the rest of that day, I took photos with my cellphone. One after another, nothing framed, nothing well-lit, just random images documenting my day. When I look back on them now, I see a lot of mundane, totally unexciting activities ... that add up to a comforting wave of pure joy. Look how good it all is.

So here goes nothing......

630 is not my favorite time of day

seems however, that you two are already on the move

yum. I swear.

packed lunch, water....and last night dishes apparently.

homework, at breakfast...you know, the normal.

he always wants to come in the morning. sad face.

let me take a selfie... and make sure I have no more toothpaste..

waiting for your friend at school drop off.

forgotten backpack...HURRY

ahhhhh...moms zumba time. happiness.

off to preschool, peace dude.

singing the states song before pickup

lunch date with my handsome boy.

stories.... ahh the little critters, classic. .

can you sit. and be quiet please?!

yum.

waiting for mk...

bored. waiting, hanging out of the roof singing...

beautiful welcome back smile. hot mess, but beautiful.

kickboxing, laundry time... seriously fighting about EVERYTHING!

hey daddy! multi task- homework, dishes.

I cant even see Ryan, what I know, he's smiling. being beat with a hammer.

Mk homework. researching a bird...fun.

remember that yummy dinner, dad ate it. no one else. this is normal. ugh.

grown up music on my way to dinner.

blessed mom time out. happy. drinks. food. giggles! grownups!

I wish I could have seen this go down, as it is one of my favorite times. Daddy reading, singing, tucking into bed. the best daddy in the world. two chapters in our book, one in each bed. backs rubbed, songs sung, kisses given. happy babies.

After looking back at all these little things I realized one big serious thing. I am incredibly thankful. I am thankful that you are my babies, and that you are my whole life. Today was an exceptionally normal day ( except me going out to dinner....ummm bonus, and that daddy was not in many pictures.... he worked hard today, not much time for mom and him together. but he was with you a lot. ) And guess what, even though I complain tirelessly someday about each one of these activites, waking up early, driving in circles, chores, arguing, ect I am so PROUD that your daddy chose to let me to be the one to get to do it all. everyday. all day. and I will continue to remember that I am lucky for each breath I take with you.

That you are the millions of little tiny memories, smiles, snuggles and seconds that make up who I am. You are me, and your Daddy, and you are both incredible. I'm loving every second dudes.

Monday, January 27, 2014

just a few thoughts.

My Mikayla, blue, sis, lil lady. Momma is just overwhelmed a little bit by you these days, and no...not in a bad way. You are beautiful, can i just say that? Lately, when you get dressed for school, have your hair all brushed, or when your riding down the street on your rockin big bike, you literally take my breath away. You glow, your just so pretty. i know all moms think this about there babies, but it has hit me like a mac truck lately and i know i tell you this a lot, but i wanted to write it down....so you know. another thing, your a frekin genius. school is so easy for you, and i LOVE IT. you are reading like a champ, blowing through your math facts and more importantly, you are excited every.time. you learn something new. you talk about rocks and pilgrims and food groups like they are the coolest things ever and its so fun. you say things that make laugh, you say things that make me cringe, you say things that scare the crap out of me, and you say things that make me sit back and think, good grief I'm proud to know you. my favorite conversation with you the other day, you were asking about your freckles, and i told you the angles kissed you and left a mark, you liked that, and moved on....then later you said hey mom, i bet god has a lot of freckles huh? adorable. you say things about god a lot, about the sunrise, the sunset, the clouds looking like ocean, the way angles are watching us... we don't talk about that stuff a ton around here and you are bigger than that, you do it on your own, i like that you know things i don't always talk about. you do things like bring me and dad breakfast in bed and make the waffles into butterflies and honey into a heart, this makes me think someday girl, you will be an amazing mommy. you are sensitive to the girls at school, what they feel and think about you, you want to be liked, that scares me a little and makes me hope that you work on the important things to be liked for. your teacher when asked about a lower grade on a report card in the behavior section, says she can be bossy.... but i think shes just trying to help, and my response.... yep. that's my mk. grandpa says we need leaders, bosses in this world, you just need to practice how you approach your leadership skills. i think he may be right. i cry thinking about how big your getting, how fast you've become a little lady, less my baby and i miss you being little. i miss you being all mine. you are going to be an amazing big girl, and i'm really excited i get a front road seat to your journey bug. i want you to learn to love your bother in a less obnoxious way, i want you to be besties, i know right now that's rough, hes a little much of a four year old boy, but that's my dream for you and him. I'm hoping when you are older you and him can be family, and friends, i hope your babies are friends, i hope your his wife's friend, i hope your the mom he will always need if im not around. i hope you are amazing when your older as you are now. i hope you know that you are my dreams come true.

Monday, November 18, 2013

Loving.

Your children are not your children

They are the sons and daughters of Life's longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.

You may give them your love but not your thoughts,
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams.
You may strive to be like them,
but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward nor tarries with yesterday.

Am I the last person in the world to ever hear this poem? I am loving it. "You may give them your love but not your thoughts for they have their own thoughts." "You may strive to be like them but seek not to make them like you". Wowza.

Wednesday, August 7, 2013

Go Get um dudes.

MK- you are insanely brave, sweet, funny, and confident. Eager to learn, ready for first grade!! you have officially ROCKED it. You get up before me most day, make lunch and are dressed ( most fashionably ) and ready to go.... just makes your momma so proud. When I hug you and kiss you and say I missed you I'm met promptly with an eye roll and a ya ya. you have made new friend, comforted kids who are sad, re connected with your old "gang" of tag playing groupies and already improved your reading and writing.... you will be an amazing first grader girl. Go mk, conquer the world, momma loves you. xo

And my Ry. You are my sweet, sensitive, cautious, observer. You are okay with school, but remind me everyday that you could just stay home with mom and snuggle..... babe. you melt my heart and I'm so sorry we cant just sit and snuggle. But you big boy, are learning, and growing and becoming more and more brave even after only 3 days. I have never been so thankful to have a place to drop you and know deep in my heart as much as I want you to be my baby, its a great place for you to go and become the Ryan I know you are meant to be. Go get um MR. Mohawk.... show the world that smile, and make them laugh and fill that big head of yours with amazing things. xo momma

Tuesday, July 30, 2013

sunshine.

Summer was awesome. SHORT. fast and awesome. Both kiddos are insane swimmers, LOVING it! played a lot w friends, swam a lot, went on weird little day trips, you know summer ness at its best.
And then...... WE GOT OUR DANCE ON! we love, I mean LOVE our studio, miss Mindy, all our friends, the awesome cute costumes, the fun music and the fun fun of watching my babies shake shake their booties for all to see. My MK was Amazing, brave confident, sassy as can be and BEAUTIFUL! Ry was nervous, but he wouldn't say it, he shook his little thrift shop booty and was the MAN! so proud.

happy fathers day babe! xo

did I tell you I HATE doing hair!

cool dude.

so sweet.

the best.

THE FINALIE!

and the in july...... grandma took us all to the beach!!! Holy COW! a cute condo right on the beach, walked down every morning sat. and PLAYED! The kiddos were in Heaven!!! Ryan and mk are both collectors, so we got lots of stuff, but they both way got into the waves, building in the sand, and chasing birds. mike came for 4 days, and then it was my momma and shawnie and the kiddos. we all had so much fun together, it was a great week! I took only about 8gabillion pictures... but those are my favs I think!

Thursday, May 30, 2013

a MAY zing.

singing graduation

okay so I've been thinking why I don't post pictures on fb and I think bc I want all my pictures to have a story or a little bit of the memory written down.... I stopped blogging forever ago bc I was kind of over it.... but I way miss it and I think its back on ( like donkey kong....ha ryan. ) SO! no the pictures are not in order BUT....

goodbye kinder!

first ryan turned 4! holy moly! He's amazing, big and strong and crazy and fun and smart and my love. we had a giant crazy party and an awesome trip to the zoo with some besties... he's a lucky fellow. he also played tball and although he like ladybugs and birds better he seemed to enjoy it.... and dad being a big helper was awesome.

then....mothers day happened and oh goodness let the construction paper, pipe cleaners and handprint poems fly.... it was super awesome and included breakfast in bed. done.

next.... Ryan graduated from preschool year one.... and momma and daddy are proud little dude. You rocked that.

and then.... a giant awesome 3 day trip to grandmas cabin happened and it was super super fun because our cousins came and partied with us. we swam in frigid lakes and rives, got muddy, camped out and pretty much just were together. having a blast. love you all together like this being a family...awwwww.

finally.... my mk is done in kinder!! you rocked this year girl, new friends, learned to read like a champ, add, subtract, sing and you know all the good kinder stuff. you are growing up! graduation was way cute singing and dancing and mom doing the happy cry... good times.

It's SUMMER!!! whoop.