a day....

While we were up in Pinetop to visit grandma and grandpa we decided to head out in the fall weather and get some pumpkins, so we looked in the local newspaper and found a pumpkin patch about 45 min away and decided to head out. We planned our day around naps in the car, lunch, and getting home in time for dinner and it was all going according to plan until.... we get there and instead of the hours in the paper 10- 3, its 3- 10, ummmm ooops! So i drive around pretty bummed, crying kids, start speeding down the road back home and out my window i see just a beautiful place. We spun around and parked and decided to take a little hike around this awesome river bed/creek place and see what we could find. We ended up spending an hour checking out the trees, running in the grass, playing with sticks and just being. It actually saved our day.... we ended up wasting enough time to get to the pumpkin patch right when they opened and having a blast. a great lesson on going with the flow... enjoying what you have and being in the moment,. a beautiful day with my family.

where is your happy place?

this, is mine. white river on the white moutians, up north just 3 hours from home. This is where i camped, sometime 2 weeks at a time growing up, where my mom and dad got married, and now where i can bring my munchikes. We spent the day playing in the freeezing water, picking flowers, seeing butterflies, and checking out all the cool critters that live around there. Ryan somehow got the idea that he loved to fish, we wernt sure but he was so right! he fished like a champ with his daddy and couldnt get enough. no fish, but lots of smiles. this is a place i will come every july with my family, smell the wet dirt, feel the mud between my toes, dare everyone to get as far in as possible, and hopefully ( when my kids wont jump in alone) camp for as long as we can handle. i love that when im haveing a hot summer day i can close my eyes and feel this place.

have i told you latley

Crazy girl, don’t you know that I love you?

And I wouldn’t dream of goin’ nowhere

Silly woman, come here, let me hold you

Have I told you lately?I love you like crazy, girl

Wouldn’t miss a single day, I’d probably just fade away
Without you, I’d lose my mind

Before you ever came along, I was livin’ life all wrong

Smartest thing I ever did was make you all mine.

Crazy girl, don’t you know that I love you?

And I wouldn’t dream of goin’ nowhere

Silly woman, come here, let me hold you

Have I told you lately?

I Love you like crazy, girl

If you have spent any amount of time with MK lately, you know shes..... well, kinda crazy. Shes emotional, spastic, sweet, salty, all kinds of everything. She is a 0 to 60 kinda girl ( not that most 3year old girls are not.... ) and she is a LOT of work for her momma. Some days, she takes more work then others ( again, just like most kiddos ) and this song always makes me and her smile when we sing to each other. She is my crazy girl.... and i wouldn't dream of goin nowhere with out here. She is her mothers daughter... crazy and all.

Take 2.

Buggie, Your second graduation of preschool was adorable... and even made me cry a little.... who is this beautiful big smart and sassy girl walking with her friends to show off all shes learned off on her own in school. You have been talking about the solar system, weather cycle, counting, spelling, the continents, and all kind of big girl things. More importantly you have learned to be independent, be a better friend, be kind and caring, and have a life that is yours.... you are so awesome. Now we get summer, to swim and play and be just us... until next year.... one more year of preschool and then time must stop.... you are just to big.

two two....

YOU ARE TWO!! Whoo!!! baby boy, the time has gone so fast. When i first met you ryan, my heart melted... and you still have that effect on me today. You are a snuggle bunny. So so awesome at giving lots of love, hugs and kisses and are in general a sweet kid. You like to keep the peace and share, laugh constatnly and have the best tickle giggle i have EVER heard. You are looking for boys these days, You are surrounded by cute girls... i think it will help your game as you grow up.... but.... dad is worried you like it to much so we have sought out some awesome buff little dudes to be men with. You like swords, guns, dogs, food, sweets, lolly pops, swimming, tv, being loud, playing ball, swinging, dancing, BUZZ! really ry, theres nothing you dont like, you love brushing teeth, are a great sleeper... oh veggies, ya that not so much. you are so friendly, funny and cute i have such high hopes for the man you will become. i love getting to know you everyday, and i know when you are a man, you will still be mommas boy. xoxo beefy.

Seriously?!

My BABY is THIS BIG? What the heck.

Can you believe hes almost two? i get that question alot... and looking at this picture... umm ya, look at him hes like a full grown little toddler dude. it feels like five minutes ago we had people comming over to snuggle our newest ferris... oohing and ahhing how tiney and sweet he is and now look at him... holding a sweet new little girlie and talking about her toes and nose and kissing her... umm AWWW!! Little Dude, you are just so stinkin BIG. and guess what, i kinda love it!! i love that we have babies to go snuggle.... and then i get to take my awesome two big kids home!

and you my M, what a sweet big sister you have always been! you love love babies... and no. no more in mommies belly =).

They will be gone...

She spins and she sways

To whatever song plays

Without a care in the world

And I'm sitting here wearing

The weight of the world on my shoulders

It's been a long day

And there's still work to do

She's pulling at me

Saying "Dad, I need you"

There's a ball at the castle

And I've been invited

And I need to practice my dancing

Oh, please, Daddy, please?"

So I will dance with Cinderella

While she is here in my arms

'Cause I know something the prince never knew

Oh, I will dance with Cinderella

I don't want to miss even one song

'Cause all too soon the clock will strike midnight

And she'll be gone...

Puppy Love

So... we have been talking puppy around here for a good six months, and although i was super okay with the whole doggie thing.. the puppy vibes kinda scared me... i already have two little ones another one .... really? So, when a friend of mine posted on facebook that her 5year old boxer needed a home with a little more time to dedicate to him... we jumped. Mike has always been a Boxer fanatic... super super awesome except... if you dont train them, really really train them... they will officially take over your life... so, this one... PERFECT! he couldn't have been better trained, loved and adapted to family life and has fit into our family so easily. He a big fan of being wit the kids... okay with all the Love they can give, has made mike work out more than he has in months and is going to be my new running buddy. Hes a sweetie and we cant wait to enjoy him for a long long time to come! Welcome home Tyson!

Muah.

I have been falling in love. All over again, with my kiddos. Its my new goal... you know those butterflies you get when you start a new relationship? well... ya, that's not happening anymore =), and that's a good thing, and so I'm finding it in the everyday.....

curious, adventurous, silly...
loving, sensitive, beefy.

3 musketeers.

these two are slowly falling in love... ah. sweet.

Goodnight

Good night house, Thank you for a beautiful day. Thank you for not minding i didn't sweep your floors and clean your walls. Thank you for keeping all our toys right in the same spot so we can start fresh again in the morning. Thank you for bouncing the giggles off the walls and sending the laughter out your windows for the world to hear. Thank you for letting us feel safe and comfortable enough to be who we want to be. Thank you for the doors to shut quiet babies behind so mom and dad can talk and laugh into the night. Our home is ours, and although it may not be fancy, or always perfect clean, it holds millions of memories inside its walls.

Just Being

this is mks world, lots of love with all these kiddos. and my support team, it takes a villiage.

this picture melts my heart, look at the people who love us enough to be there to celebrate rys one! hes a lucky dude.m and Em, aww back in the day

m and em, have been bff since they were 3 months old or so, and know, a whole sibling for both later, we love being with them as much now as then.

even mommys made some aswesome friends!

Jackson, ahh... we just cant get enough j man, these guys have been buds forever to, and ry loves to be with an older man and is learning lots from this guy. we could adopt him and he would fit. right. in.

Brinley and her fmaily have become our other half out here in the boonies. we can spend everyday together and never get sick of it. these girls love.love. to be girly together, and baby ky and ryan have.. well kinda been flirting. =)

Karter and Ryan were chubby little fat babies together, its so nice having a little man, ryans size to be with, they recognize eachother and are trouble all day long!

As a lot of you know we have been in the in between for a few weeks here, and ug, let me tell you that is not a place i like to be. i like to know when i wake up and go to bed every night whats next and not knowing sorta drove me, to drink~ oops... i mean, crazy.i just couldn't stop thinking about everyone we love, and all the time and love that has gone into these friendships we have. some of them are new and fun, and day to day people are the ones who get us through the days... and i know i know, wherever we go, these people will be... people to go have lunch with, or meet at the park, but its the people that i can go over to their houses with dirty kids, and no shoes on ( wow we sound homeless ) and just sit around, eat chocolate and let the kiddos duke it out.. or play, or whatever they do at this age. We love eachothers kids enough to know that every second of thier lives is important and we are lucky enough to share it with. People i would not want to have to explain to mikayla they wont be there today. people that i can have any conversation with in the world, and who get it. when we moved up here these people were only people on the phone for me, the Tucson chicks who I've known my whole life and i thought, this can never happen again, it will take a life time to find these people, and weirdly enough... in three years of being here, some in a matter of a year i find my self closer to these people i could have ever imagined. some of these peoples kids are like my kids at this point, we can do sleepovers, long play dates, and they feel like an extension of my kids...and even better, my kids have these people in their lives for them. people who treat my kids like family. awesome. i would have gone crazy with out you guys. all of you. and i know moving, if not us, but other people is inevitable. but i hope through the powers of something bigger they will all always be a part of us. its easy to forget how much you love someone. so i know I've missed a million posts about Christmas and Ryan being however months but here are just some pictures of us, just being with who we love, and where we love.